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21 augustus TOW passion~~以前有个朋友说过，任何执着于某件事情或者某个人的人都是让人感动的。
nod, nod~~~
对我来说，这种人还是让人羡慕的。我想，我算是一个理性大过感性的人。举个简单的例子来说，为了将来混口饭吃，放弃了向往了n年的architecture不学，跑去学quantitative finance; 可能是潜意识里面不敢随便付出感情，所以就连真正意义上的crush都没有过，说来有点可笑，我很羡慕那些可以真正fall for sb的人，因为我相信爱上一个人是一件幸福的事情～～
有时候太过坚持或执着的人让人觉得不够实际，其实他们才是活得最充实的一群人。
有时候我傻的希望自己可以理性的彻底一点，可以看透一切，一门心思的追求前途和功利，可惜我对此也做不到～～
所以我就这么傻傻的游走在两者之间，
不知道自己在执着些什么，或坚持些什么。
所以常常活得懒散而庸碌～～
说了一大通的废话，忘了说the trigger of all the crap了，交代一下，是今天的cluster leader training session. 我是emcee,我totally把它screw up了。honestly speaking, it s all my fault.开始前5分钟，我才开始看program outline,没有认真研究过housing guidelines,没有想过那些cluster leaders' name该怎么pronounce,没有准备一个clear mind for the session even,开始前强灌了一罐咖啡来keep myself awake.
Yan Yan is right. It s not coz i am blur but coz i dont care abt it enough.
然后我问自己，为什么别人可以那么committed,而自己不可以呢～～如果自己不在这个事情上committed,那么我又到底在乎些什么呢～～
没有passion和committement的人很可怜～～
笑一笑，我觉得自己是傻子～～
08 augustus 6 days to new sem...some random thoughtsthe whole PGP welcome fest is finally over. There has been a lot of frustrations in the process and i have once been wishing i t to end soon. This afternoon when i was clearing the log room, i had a great feeling of loss. I am sure i am gonna miss the days hanging out with a bunch of great ppl here...just wanna say thanks to all of u if any of u happen to pass by...
i plan to take up 6 modules this sem provided i can get all；
CS1102,LAF3201,PC1141,LSM1301,MA2222,MA3220
25MC, it s tough, i know. can i handle tt? i dunno. just let me work and hope for the best....
recently heard a senior died in an accident in china. 2nd case this yr, seriously i dunno wat to say. i pray for him and i tell myself, muz live every moment to the fullest...
religion is powerful, beyond my imagination...singapore is far too small for it...i got scared by the sick-passion of the followers and i feel sorry for those ppl who got trapped inside...
(P.S. Dear Giao, this entry is in english, so u can read liao..) |
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